Sometimes skinny just isn’t the best
This post is done as part of the Writing Workshop over at Sleep is for the Weak
I decided (rather bravely) to opt for prompt number 1 and to talk about feeling sexy in my own skin (eek!)
I guess I’ve been pretty lucky when it comes to my figure and looks, don’t get me wrong I’m certainly no amazing beauty or supermodel but I’m pretty happy with what I’ve got. I didn’t always think this way, at school I hated being the short skinny girl that seemed forever trapped in a prepubescent body, I was a late bloomer I eventually found out. I eventually shot up in height and my adult body arrived. 5’10″, size 10 (UK) with a 35inch inside leg measurement - not bad if I must confess myself. If I could change anything it would probably be my face but I’m not too bothered by it really, after 34 years I’ve kind of grown used to it
As much as I don’t mind being skinny, it’s not this stage in my life where I felt really sexy in my own skin. OK so I can get away with wearing nice clothes and I look pretty hot in a bikini and all that but that is just the outside packaging and as much as the men drool, it isn’t this that makes me feel good inside.
If I have to choose a photo of when I felt at my most sexy it would be this one (gosh am I really brave enough to post this photo – oh sod it why not if it offends any one then that’s their problem not mine!)
But – I hear you all cry – you’re pregnant! How on earth can you possibly feel sexy whilst pregnant? Strange isn’t it but it was whilst I was pregnant that I felt the most like a woman that I ever have. It may have been the raging hormones or maybe my pregnancy brain finally lost the plot – but there was something about being nice and curvy, feeling like I was doing what nature intended and growing my offspring inside me which made me feel sexy. OK I admit I was lucky in my pregnancy in that I didn’t get stretch marks, I wasn’t too huge and I didn’t get swollen feet etc and aside from the heartburn I had a pretty easy ride.
I’ve never been the maternal kind really, I’m an accountant, a professional, a business woman and my life until now has been spent building a career and having very little interest in children so imagine my surprise at finding myself enjoying how I looked when I was heavily pregnant. I was expecting to hate being large but for some reason it was nice to put aside all those sleek outfits and wear nice flowing garments which showed off what little bump I had. I truely felt like a woman and comfortable in my own skin. I really miss being pregnant nowadays.
So there you have it – sometimes skinny just isn’t the best
The photograph was taken by sister Sonia Thorpe Photography when I was 36 weeks pregnant.