OK so this is my first attempt at something like this, so bear with me It’s an entry for The Gallery over at
As I look through my photo gallery I have thousands of photos which could represent motherhood to me. There are ones where I look like the ultimate yummy mummy with nice hair and a smiling baby, there are ones where I look exhausted and on the brink of tears. There are ones that make me cry, ones that make me laugh and ones that I just want to stare at for hours on end. It’s a tough choice but the photo I’ve eventually decided on isn’t exactly the most glamourous in my collection but to me it’s special. MissB was only a few hours old and we were breastfeeding in our hospital bed and I think the photo says it all really.
There is something about this that brings back those precious moments when we were first bonding and I couldn’t stop staring at this amazing little thing that I had somehow created. How on earth I had managed to create something so perfect I will never know.
I could write beautiful poems or verses about how wonderful motherhood has been but to be honest it’s been hard, tiring, messy and a very steep learning curve that only now 6 months later I finally feel I’m coming to grips with. I’m hardly the earth mother type and as I look back through my photos now I realise for every beautiful photo there are a hundred of me that show just how hard this journey has been. Don’t get me wrong, I love my daughter and would do anything for her, we’ve had many beautiful moments together and shared many smiles and laughs but I just wanted to paint a picture of how motherhood is not all sugar and roses. It’s the most rewarding task I’ve ever started in my life, one I know which will give me a lifetimes worth of precious memories and I wouldn’t swap it for the world – but my god it’s been hard!
And there ends my thoughts on motherhood